Hand Lettering My Way Through Tough Times
I first started practicing hand lettering in 2015 when my friend Amina and I started a casual lettering club called the Unofficial Hand Lettering Society of Silver Spring. At the time, we wanted to create a space to practice our lettering together. It was a fun outlet for us to be creative in a more personal, just-for-us way than how we are creative in our jobs (me as a graphic designer and her as a candle and beauty goods maker). It wasn’t until a few years later that I learned how I could use my hand lettering to cope with my experience living with multiple sclerosis.
I really saw myself as a burden to society because of the medical costs required to keep me well. The narrative was persuasive that it wasn’t fair that other people who didn’t need a lot of medical care were carrying the weight of my illness (even though that is how all types of insurance work). I started to see myself in terms of dollar signs rather than as a complex, valuable human being. I felt like I had to prove I was worth the costs. It was hard to prove that to myself and I felt stressed and sad a lot of the time that year.
One thing that really helped me cope during this difficult time was my hand lettering. The first thing I tried out was an Instagram post where I hand lettered the word “sick.” I shared a caption that said:
“Here’s to those that are battling with words. Sick. Sick people. This kind of labeling still has a lot of power over me these days and though I wish it didn’t, I’m fighting to stay grounded. I make sure I have people reminding me that it’s bullshit that I feel like damaged goods and a burden. Thought I’d share in case anyone else is struggling with the same.”
My Instagram post
It felt really powerful to use lettering to share how I was feeling so I wouldn’t be so stuck in my head with negative thoughts.
After this post, I started a 100-day challenge where I committed to practicing my lettering every day for 100 days and sharing it to Instagram. I make the theme of my challenge “100 Days of Health Stuffs” and made lettering about my thoughts about my health experience as well as quotes and affirmations that resonated with me. I also used the challenge to explore my now signature brush lettering style. I used my daily
The first day what I lettered was, “You are not broken.”
This mantra started to help me open up to the possibility that I am more than the social category of “sick” and there are more ways I can feel besides busted and damaged. Somehow writing it out helped it feel more real and true. I also lettered affirmations like, “I am worth what is costs for me to be well” and “I am more than a pre-existing condition.” The last day when I completed my challenge, I wrote the simple but powerful phrase of, “You are enough.” That’s an affirmation I return to quite often.
During this time, I learned how helpful hand lettering is for me in tough times. I’ve kept up with lettering about my health experience and even made an Instagram account for it called Human Plus Kind Co. I’m so grateful to have this tool to help me process and move through difficult thoughts and experiences that are part of this MS journey.
Topic Living Well
Tags Community, Emotional Wellness, I have MS, MS Activist
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